8/26/2025 - Feeling Better

If you want context please read my last blogpost!

Well, it's been over a month since I last spoke to him. It has been hard, but I am feeling a lot better. I've just been traveling around Europe hitting different cities alone, and I am set to go back to the US in about a week.

I am glad I did not let the fact that I was heartbroken derail my entire trip. I still was extremely sad, yes, but nonetheless I powered through! In the days right after it happened, I considered going home early, as I did not want to spend the next month alone with no friends in a foreign-speaking country. But I did, and I am here, and I had a great time.

I think I'll reach out to him eventually. I am healing well, and once I feel ready to, I'd like to check in and see how he's doing. But not now. I have to give both of us space until it feels right. When that is, I have no idea, but we shall see. But I'm doing alright.

As for my trip, this has been the most insane summer of my life. My German is getting a lot better, and although it's still shitty, it gets me around. I am going to miss Berlin so much when I go back home. I've been gone from Berlin for only a month and I already miss it dearly, but I'll be going back for a couple days before I fly home. I really, really want to come back for a longer time than I was there this summer. I originally planned to sublet a room in an apartment for the two extra months this summer after my study program ended, but decided to travel Europe. Part of me regrets not staying in Berlin longer, yes, but I am so glad I decided to travel and see so many cool places.

In other news, I got a job! A game design job. Woohoo! It's part of my university's required internship credit, and for the last two years of college, I had been terrified about finding a job in the industry I want. But I did! Thank God. I'm excited to start this fall.

I'm also moving! I will be getting my own apartment this fall when my job starts. I will miss my roommates dearly, but after three months of being completely alone and living alone, it would be far too much of an adjustment for me to jump right back in to shared living. We all will live very close, though, so our friendships will be just fine.

I'm excited to come home and start this next school year. It's been quite a summer, but fuck, I'm ready to be back.